Insecurities

The world we live in is beautiful but cruel. We stand together side by side but we may not work together. We coexist with one another but we may not help each other. We go around the world, meet new people and make new friends, but we can't change the fact that we can't please everyone.

The world we live in is so blessed with nature and an abundance of elegance and beauty. We all are blessed with a livable planet. We are blessed with different abilities and talents ---- abilities and talents that we use in making decisions. We have to decide whether we help others or bring them down. Helping is caring, help improve one another's skills for the better. That is the ideal life, but life is not always perfect, there will always be people lurking in the dark, filled with envy and lust for power. The envy and lust ignites a flame and causes things like bullying or betrayals and all the bad stuffs. But not everything starts because of envy and lust, there are insecurities. We all have insecurities. We stand in front of millions of people. In our lifetime, we are judged by the way we talk, the way we move, the way we act, and everything else we do. We can not escape the fate of being judge. No one in this world is perfect.

Because of the judgments we get, there are times where we fall into depravity. We fall into depression, being unable to meet the expectations of others. We fall into anxiety, fearing the remarks of people around us. We fall into drug addiction, after the pain and sorrow of something horrible. We become different in personality, because we have different ways of thinking. Not wanting others to get mad at you, wanting to be liked by all around you, wanting to keep a good reputation, we all have our reasons. At some point, these reasons make us seem fake and manipulative. People can't really change that, by nature, we learn to adapt to situations and sometimes when we do, we lose a bit of ourselves. Our insecurities makes it difficult for us to improve. That's not something we can do in a day's work. Insecurities are the air we breath and the air we can't see. No one really knows how it looks like, no one really can tell much about it and it is always there. Insecurities are something quite clingy. They creep into your thoughts when you have finally felt happiness and success, they haunt you in your dreams, they show up anywhere at anytime. They stare at your every move, contemplating on the next thing they will say to ruin you.

In this world, we will experience the hardships of being betrayed and lied to. At some point, we would do the same to others to save face or to save ourselves. Betrayal causes insecurities. A betrayal of a close friend can lead to the end of everything in someone's life. A lie that you made up can break the reputation of anyone out there. No one is really too good or too bad. We all have our faults. We lie. We steal. We betray. We pretend. It is as if we live in a world filled with drama, where kindness can't be taken for granted and not everything is what it seems. People may be kind in front of you, but in their minds, they bash you. People can act mean and rude, but in the inside, they too are in pain. People can act neutral but they may be siding with others in their own way. Those little thoughts that may mean little to us, those short remarks and comments we make, those careless slip of words, any of those gives birth to the insecurities inside our hearts. Our insecurities make it hard for us to move on especially when everyday we are pressured by the gazes of people around us. We can overcome this insecurities one by one, step by step, but once conquered another is to come. It is an endless cycle. Insecurities are incurable, but they can be ignored and forgotten, however, like the air, they are always there.